...while on high dosage of LSD, some dose of 3-FEA, THC and some N2O. Yeah. Not sure if I'd recommend that, when it really hit me I thought I'll have a heart attack.
I'm not sure if that was actually real, but at some point something "clicked" and I "got" optimistic nihilism. At the time I was convinced something really deep/integral to my personality updated.
Thanks for haring. If you are interested in looking into more about meaning-making, I can recommend https://meaningness.com/. It has some sections about nihilism that I found very enlightening.
> Awakening from the meaning crisis
Two days ago I figured I had an existential crisis. I didn't realize these were a thing. I stumbled upon things like this video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-rWnb6y2IqY
...while on high dosage of LSD, some dose of 3-FEA, THC and some N2O. Yeah. Not sure if I'd recommend that, when it really hit me I thought I'll have a heart attack.
I'm not sure if that was actually real, but at some point something "clicked" and I "got" optimistic nihilism. At the time I was convinced something really deep/integral to my personality updated.
Now I'm uncertain. I really hope it did.
Thanks for haring. If you are interested in looking into more about meaning-making, I can recommend https://meaningness.com/. It has some sections about nihilism that I found very enlightening.